Ok... so today is mine and bradleys 9 month anniversary...other than the fact that im really really happy that were still together.. i feel like he's mad at me. maybe its just me... but i feel like theres something wrong... i love him more than anything in the entire world.. and i always will.. and no matter what im not gonna lose him over something stupid. i feel like i annoy him when he's with his friends... and even my mom blames it on me...
i dont get it.. yeah.. alotta things were said and happened while i was outta town/ outta state.... but most of those things were not my fault..and my moms blaming ever fight or arguement or disagreement we've had since i've been home.. on me..
he stayed the night the other night.. and i like that.. and then he went to dillons and he wasnt the same while over there.. i dont know whats going on.. but i hate fight with him.. i hate argueing or whatever we do.. its tearing me apart... along with him...
so im just going to right something here.. and in hopes to get something said... here it goes..
So far we've gone 9 months.. and i still love him more each day, and when each day ends with i love yous, i dream of him.. Yet mornings come, we have bad days and we fight until we cant. and i wish oh how i wish .. this fighting would just end... i love him.. what can i say... i've totally fallen.. for this boy i call my love... and yet we fight day in and day out.. and he blames it all on him.. and how i wish we could split the fault as to not to make him feel so bad... becuz truth be told its not all his fault.. and this i know. i just wish... and can only hope that this bickering will end.. and im sorry that we fight each day.. and for little things at that...i wish to tell him that i love him.. and would do anything for him.. and i hope he reads this so i can say that this fighting will end.... i will not bicker over stupid things will not argue over words spilled will not disagree over things he says becuz its just his opinion... i will not yell i will not fight i will not say anything in maddness i only wish to tell him how much i really love him.. so will this fighting stop... im praying to god and hoping so... becuz
Brad.... is my one and only and he is my everything.. i love him more than words can explain.. and i will do my best to tell him everyday... i do not wish to fight with him... and i wish he didnt think that... i just hope he knows that i would give my last breath for him.. my heart my sould.. my entire being..... kill for him.. die for him... and make sure he was happy..
becuz making him happy makes me happy.. becuz i know i've still got him...<3
but here i end my enty.. and in hopes to see this thru.. i love brad with all my heart... and hope he knows it.. i dedicate this song to him..
warmness on the soul... avenged sevenfold.. our favorite band.. and a song he dedicated to me.. a while back... </3 i love you....
</3... x0x0..... Trying to be a better person..... x0x0...</3
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